I know I haven't really written a proper journal in forever so I'm just writing this one to inform that I am stuck in crunch time at college and the work load is MASSIVE!! In the next week I need to have done:
- Full oil painting (with write up *NOTE if it's still wet when I hand it in I fail! I think?)
- Pop Culture exam (it's a great class, don't get me wrong, but to study with the amount of stuff I have to do is just...AH MAN TIME ISSUES!!)
- Mythological Scratchboard Portrait (this is probably the project that scares me most because our teacher said it cannot be done in just one night and I am TERRIBLE with time management!! AHHHH!!!)
- Photoshop Expresso Assignment (this one's cool but due on the same day as the prior and it's the class RIGHT after sooooo shit son...But it's an interesting one and I've already got a start on it)
- Photoshop quiz (HOW THE HELL DO I STUDY FOR THAT?!)
- Emotional Independant Drawing (I have a plan, it's red and charcoaly so I think I can do it in a day/night...ahhhhh shit time management...)
- Career Management Quiz on stuff we learn that very same day (WHAT A GREAT WAY TO END THE SEMESTER EH?!)

Ok yeah, I am stressing real bad here. I think this journal is just another form of procrastination and really...I am worried. My time management skills have failed me many a times and I have been getting so stressed and pulling so many gosh darn all-nighters! AH THIS IS RIDIC!! If anyone has any tips to stop myself from procrastination then please! LET ME KNOW!! I NEED ADVICE!

Anything else I can report before I go paint? Ummm kay, I complained about how I was in Bizarro class earlier this semester? Well my scheduale for next semester has me with them YET AGAIN! WHY? Why do they want to drain me of my Hojoness? THIS IS NUTS!!

Ummmm...OH! Totally made my day! (or week ) Basically, he helped me on a Fairy Tale assignment (I'll put that up maybe next weekend) and boosted my self-esteem (lol). He and I made a commercial for a project we had in class; basically make the marketing campaign or something for the art show next year. If you wanna see the commercial here it is:
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Finally, he is also a comic master in the making and after seeing my Fairy Tale inkings (yeah that's what the project was) he said that when he finishes his comic he'll let me ink them and I'm all "Really?" and he's all "YEAH MAN!" ANd that made me SO HAPPY because I've been worried as hell about my future *seriously, some dark shit is going on inside my head or soemthing, it scares me) but this has lightened it up, if even just a bit. I have the knowledge that my inking talents are requested my an amazing artist! And better yet, inking is the thing that I really enjoy and if I were to ever pick an artistic career it would probably be something involving inking. WOO!

Anything else? There is but I can't think of any...I'm worried about school, my future, my health, my sanity (seriously, I've been mental snapping more than usual ) and...Well I did mention the best weekend ever but that story will have to come later.

OH! Another sad-stress-related thing is that my awesome friend Tim (seen in a couple comics) is throwing a Christmas Party at his new place but because of my homework I DON'T THINK I CAN MAKE IT!!! Man...I am just freaking out everywhere.

Seriously, what's up with that?

OH YEAH! So if you have any advice on proper time management/procrastination avoidance then I would be ever so grateful to hear it!!

Ciao Ciao me friendos, and wish me luck

MEME TIME!

~~~~~~~~~EEVEE~~~~~~~
[X] You are cute (I've been told)
[X] You love to play
[X] You don't like getting into fights
[ ] You hate the darkness or you are afraid of it
[X] You have a best friend forever (YUS!)
[X] You love your best friend very much
[X] You usually don't lie
[ ] You don't say bad words
[X] Most people love you (I've been told)
[X] You are youngest of all your siblings
[X] You like to wish upon a star
[X] You have a lots of stuffed animals
------TOTAL: 10

~~~~~~~~~VAPOREON~~~~
[X] You can swim (kinda)
[ ] You go to swimming pool at least one time a week
[X] You hate the racism
[X] Someone has said that you are hot (Does it count if it was a girl?)
[X] You are very social
[ ] You don't spend more than 2 hours on the computer or TV
[X] You enjoy sleeping
[ ] You know most of your neighbors' names
[ ] You can speak in another language than English.
[ ] You visit social places (such as concerts,theaters,etc.) more than 1 time a week.
[ ] People call you a "smiley face"
[ ] You LOVE spending time in the water
------TOTAL: 5

~~~~~~~~~~~JOLTEON~~~~
[ ] You are a street kid
[ ] You have been in an accident
[ ] You usually get into street fights
[ ] Your favorite kind of music is rap
[X] You have been shocked by electricity
[X] You seriously need to get a life (I know I said I'm social but it's different I swear!)
[ ] People say you're too egoistic
[ ] You have tried gangsta style
[ ] You try to be really cool (I don't have to try BAM)
[X] You really want someone (Uwaaaaaaaaaaah?)
[ ] Last thing you did before you sit on computer was meeting with someone.
[X] You hate something right now
------TOTAL: 4

~~~~~~~~~~~~FLAREON
[ ] You are kind of a hothead
[X] People try to calm you down
[ ] When you want something, you won't stop until you get it.
[ ] You are seriously waiting for something right now
[ ] You annoy people (I DON'T KNOW!)
[ ] You like cartoon villains more than heroes
[X] You would like to have red eyes.
[X] You were born in summer or spring
[X] You can think of crazy things
[X] You have burned something
[X] Things around you are stupid (HA!)
[X] You don't like your life at a moment
----TOTAL: 7

~~~~~~~~~~~~ESPEON
[X] You believe in magic
[ ] Your first boyfriend/girlfriend dumped you
[ ] You really love someone
[ ] You believe in love at first sight
[ ] You haven't tried to smoke,drugs or drink alcohol
[ ] You are a goody-goody......
[X] ......or average
[X] You get injured easily
[?] People don't really get you
[X] You MUST do something right now (HOMEWORK)
[ ] You are like a psychic
[X] You have a great sight
------TOTAL: 5

~~~~~~~~~~~~UMBREON
[ ] You love the dark.
[X] you like to wear/see/use the color black.
[X] glow in the dark stickers are cool. (More like AWESOME)
[ ] you are sometimes thought of as evil by your appearance. (Never, that's what makes it fun)
[X] you look out for yourself at times.
[X] you have or would like to have a umbreon in your pokemon games. (The first pokemon related question ppl!)
[ ] you are terrifyingly silent.
[ ] you have eyes that make people timid or afraid.
[X] you have helped or been helped by someone but never said 'you're welcome' or 'thank you'. ;_;
[ ] you are somewhat of a loner.
[X] you love to go out in the night.
[ ] You have excellent vision in dark places.
------TOTAL: 6

~~~~~~~~~~~~LEAFEON
[ ] Fall or spring is one of your favorite seasons.
[ ] you adore the color green.
[X] you love flowers but choose not to pick them.
[ ] clean, green and pristine is your way of life.
[ ] animals adore you and you adore them. (They hate me!)
[ ] you are a very peaceful person.
[X] you care deeply for anyone even if you do not know them at all.
[X] you enjoy longs walk in nature or the woods.
[ ] you are a vegetarian.
[ ] your eyes are or you wish for them to be green. (I prefer blue over green)
[X] you really can't stand cold days.
[X] people really love to be around you. (Ahhh I have no right to judge this)
------TOTAL: 5

~~~~~~~~~~~~GLACEON
[ ] Winter days are your favorite seasons.
[ ] cold weathers don't phase you with or without a jacket.
[X] you have (or wish to have) amazingly snow white or light blue eyes.
[ ] You live in a place where it's cold all year round. (lol Canada)
[ ] Hot days are your most hated time of any week.
[X] you don't mind cold foods.
[X] You have once used a cold joke (cold-hearted etc.) during cold times. (too soon!)
[ ] You adore very much the color white.
[ ] you take long walks in the snow.
[ ] you have a cold personality. (I can be a bitch sometimes :[ )
[ ] people can't really call onto you for sympathy.
[ ] you have heard the song Cold by crossfade.
------TOTAL: 3

DAMN! I'm an Eevee...But i want super powers! Well at least I'm almost a Flareon.

Whatever happens today, you are sure to avoid boredom! You maintain a steady level of activity that keeps you fully engaged and ready to strike when opportunity inevitably comes knocking.


Hmmm, I've been up for over 40 hours, waited in two lines, sat in class and talked and then the power went out and I couldn't find friends. ACTION PACKED!!!

I'm gonna take a nap...

If you were to meet yourself, do you think you would get along?

I know I wouldn't.

Summer time and the wind is blowing outside
in lower Chelsea
And I don't know what I'm doing in this city
The sun is always in my eyes
It crashes through the windows
And I'm sleeping on the couch
When I came to visit you
That's when I knew
That I could never have you
I knew that before you did
Still I'm the one who's stupid
And there's this burning
Like there's always been
I've never been so alone
And I've
Never been so alive
Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by
The cigarette ash flies in your eyes and you don't mind
you smile
And say the world it doesn't fit with you
I don't believe you
You're so serene
Careening through the universe
Your axis on a tilt
You're guiltless and free
I hope you take a piece of me with you

And there's things I'd like to do
That you don't believe in
I would like to build something
But you'll never see it happen
And there's this burning
Like there's always been
I've never been so alone
And I've
I've never been so alive

And there's this burning
There is this burning

Where's the soul I want to know
New York City is evil
The surface is everything
But I could never do that
Someone would see through that
And this is the last time
We'll be friends again
And I'll get over you
And you'll wonder who I am
And there's this burning,
Just like there's always been
I've never been so alone, alone
And I've, and I've
I've never been so alive

So alive

I go home to the coast it starts to rain I paddle out on the water
Alone
Taste the salt and taste the pain
I'm not thinking of you again
Summer dies and swells rise
The sun goes down in my eyes
See this rolling wave
Darkly coming
To take me
Home

And I never been so alone
And I've never been so alive

- Third Eye Blind